What the...............???????

J.K. Rowling told audiences last night during a talk that Albus Dumbledore is gay. Someone apparently asked about his love life and she said that he was infatuated with one of his rivals, Gellert Grindelwald. Uh, what the??? Why did she have to go there? To each their own I guess - but in literature - after the fact - years later - not written into the novel! What else is she going to reveal? That Harry is a cross dresser and he uses Ginny's clothes while fighting for the Ministry of Magic? Or that one of the Weasley parents cheated on the other and eventually got divorced? Thus is the danger of literature. The creator can do whatever they'd like, even after the fact. After all, the characters they write about are contained purely within their imagination so writers are able to do whatever they want to. That's all I have to say about that!

Napping in the afternoon

I just woke up from a nap. It felt good to sleep in the afternoon, but I always wake up even more tired than when I went to sleep. While I was sleeping, I had two pretty random dreams. One of them I will tell you about since I can't quite remember the other one. The dream takes place in our home, or what is supposed to represent our current home. Before we bought this house I had dreams about it, specifically that it was haunted or inhabited by some spirit. In the dream the house was really big, probably double the size our house is now and it had some property right next to it. Part of the lower level of the house was inhabited by a spirit as well as the additional building next door. So, we did not use that part of the house, simply left it decorated as the last owner had it, nor did we use the property next door since there was something nasty in that building. In my recurring dream about this house, I am always giving people tours of the entire house, even the property next door - this time I was giving Tommy Lee a tour (why Tommy Lee, I have no idea since I don't even like the guy - but in my dream he was very nice). Back to the dream! While I am showing him around, I go into the rooms that are amazingly functional and pretty nicely decorated, yet are not in use because something else is there (that we can't see obviously). While there, Tommy Lee looks at me and says, "WOW, this area is really nice. You know you can get someone in here to get rid of the spirits so you can use these rooms. You should do that." Here's the kicker - I simply look at him and say, "Yeah, I know", but then think to myself that this is the way it's gonna stay because I simply don't want to do anything about it. Isn't that weird? Even in my dream I am apathetic about seeking outside help for something even though I know it will benefit my life. Hmmm!!! I can read even deeper into the dream, but I will stop here. Interesting tidbits into the mind of Carol. :)

Why???

I know it's a part of everyday life - but why is it that people continue to make suicide comments TO ME after knowing that my father committed suicide a few years ago? I will NEVER understand people! Of course I never say anything because I know, more times than not, it's not something people think about (and I say stuff all the time that I don't mean or regret saying and wish I could take back) - but really? I think commenting, or joking about suicide is definitely a part of everyday life, but talking about it in such graphic form as to say, "blow your/my brains out" is just too much for me to handle (and probably always will). Let me qualify this.......I know that people are going to joke about it, and I know that many many people in my life don't know about the situation - so OF COURSE I have a forgiving heart. But, I guess, to say it simply - for those that are close to me, it hurts my feelings. Simply said!

One of my very closest friends made a comment to this effect not a few months after my dad's death and promptly apologized. And I very much appreciated her apology at the time. But, I have hesitated to blog about this because I ABSOLUTELY do not want people walking on eggshells around me - NOR do I want people to apologize for what they have said - there's not point. I want people to be who they are. But what I DO want is for people to be slightly sensitive to the situation......not alter who they are, just sensitive I guess (because every time something like that is mentioned in such a graphic way, it effects me deeply). With that said - I don't want to talk about it anymore - I have said my peace and now I am done!

Look for a happier blog later. I will maybe even blog about the Thai Lettuce Wraps I am making for lunch with a few different sauces.....maybe! :)

If only....

I so wish I could sleep! I haven't slept a full night in weeks. I think it has been over 3 weeks. I have woken up numerous times though out the night - not just once or twice, but as many as 6 or 8 times. This is driving me crazy. I feel like a walking zombie. So much in fact that I fell asleep at around 9:30 or 10:00pm last night. No help though, I woke up about 6 times. What the hell is wrong with me??? Tylenol PM doesn't even work anymore, and it used to knock me out for hours. Now, nothing! Ugghhhhhh - something's gotta give, I just hope it's not my sanity!

Last winter....

I posted a couple of recipes last winter that were two different pot roasts. I think the post was called "Dueling Pot Roasts". I liked both recipes, but now I am starting to experiment a bit more. There are a few recipes that I want to try - one with a tomato base - the other with balsamic vinegar and yet one last one with a can of coke believe it or not. Since it's getting cold, and chuck roast is on sale right now, I think I will stock up and try one new recipe of pot roast a week. I made pot roast for the bible study I go to on Thursday night - it was decent - not my favorite. And, this Sunday I get to do it again for company......but, the people who are coming over want plain tasting things - so I can't get fancy or anything. I will be making my ultra yummy Cheddar Garlic Mashed Potatoes. Of course I will be making something plain, like oven roasted red potatoes or something like that so our company is happy. Of course I will pair it with a couple of different vegetables and maybe even some fresh baked bread (or maybe a fluffy store bought loaf - who knows what tomorrow will hold).

Today should be fun - we are cleaning all day since we are having company tonight - and tomorrow. Ugghhhhh - I love having a clean house, but I HATE doing it. Maybe I need to learn to be a cleaner, less cluttery person.